It's snowing today.

Today, I was receiving Giun Soogi Treatment from Semyeong Seuseungnim,

and he asked, “Does your head hurt?”

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So, I took a moment to check whether my head hurt or not.

I had holes drilled in my skull and I didn't know

what it felt like to have pain in my skull.

I don't think I've ever thought about feeling pain in my skull,

other than a headache.

So I couldn't give an easy answer.

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But immediately my worries grew.

After brain surgery, I became very scared

if there is a pain in my head (brain) more than anywhere else.

It is because the past few months must have been difficult and scary.

 

I found out after a while.

I was thinking that the reason my head hurts right now was

because of the pain at the wounds of the surgery.

 

I was wondering if he was talking about feeling like my head was getting tight

when I turned over or moved even a little or things like the throbbing in the area

where my hand touched while sleeping.

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It was amazing.

He has never had a hole in his head but knew this feeling without being told or seen.

It was not only strange and surprising, but even mysterious.

 

What would I have done

if I didn’t get the Giun Soogi from him?

 

The Giun Soogi has a theory, and I got better

by applying the technique according to the theory of it.

This was the technical signs and wonders.

I give thanks and glory to heaven.

If there was no Giun Soogi treatment,

I would have been dead by now, lying in the dirt, frozen solid.

 

These days,

my thoughts are changing and becoming more peaceful day by day.

It snowed quite a bit today,

and I am so, so thankful.

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There is someone I met by chance

a long time ago.

He was like a good friend

who came to me when I was sick.

He's like a person who might come running

if I ask him out for coffee on a day like today.

 

Thank you and you are a good person.

I think I became a little incontinent

after meeting him when I was sick.

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A sick person would not be able to think or act normally

because his or her mind will go back and forth.

The average person cannot count sick people.

Understanding with thoughts is the same as not knowing.

If you have never experienced anything like that, you don’t know.

 

Although I was an ordinary person with rich emotions

who laughed and cried together when I talk to people, I learned a lot this time.

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I said I knew, but I didn’t. I made a big mistake.

I realized that similar experiences do not mean knowledge.

There is something I learned when I had that experience.

I learned greatly that there are things that can only be known

and thought about when you stand on that experience directly.

 

So, I think it could also be said here that trials can become blessings.

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There are things that you can know and realize

only when you stand there.

In the same sense, you can't fathom a path you haven't taken yourself.

I learned about the feelings, difficulties, and needs of carers and patients.

Saying it's likely to happen doesn't mean you know.

What you think by looking over your shoulder from the side

does not strictly mean you know.

If we think that all human affairs are there,

it seems that we need to learn a lot about our life and mind.

Only then will you be ready to get back to the healthy state again.

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Since I was hospitalized,

those thoughts slowly began to dawn on me.

At first I was angry,

and the tears wouldn't stop flowing from my belly button,

 

and then I thought.

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“Wait, now is the time to learn a lesson.

It's the perfect time to learn because I don't have to worry about anyone

and I can be alone without being noticed.

It's a gift.

This was the only time I could learn something I haven’t learnt.”

What do I need to know?

Why did God put me to take a break like this?

Was it because I needed to learn or realize something important?

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However,

after being discharged from the hospital, the rehabilitation time was not easy.

 

Here too, I kept thinking.

What do I need to know?

What did I miss?

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I am grateful

as I experience the time I am finding the answers that I need to find one by one.

 

My time as a patient is filled with a time of enlightenment,

a time to take a break from living life,

and a time to prepare to live life again.

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Anyway, today the whole world is covered in white snow,

hiding everything that is dirty and complicated.

I will have a nice rest for today

I give thanks and glory to heaven.

 

 

 

 

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